Friday, August 6, 2010

Scary Nightmares - 10w3d

So the last few nights I have been having horrible nightmares about bleeding, and thus miscarrying. I think I am having these nightmare b/c I am thinking about the spotting, and in turn thinking about all the things that can, and might go wrong.

Last night in my nightmare I bled so much I soaked 6 pads and the Dr. said, yes you are miscarrying, lets give it a week and if you are still bleeding by Friday we will do a D&C. I wake up terrified and run to the bathroom scared to look down.

But all is well - no more bleeding. I know I just need to relax.

Another thing that is stressing me out is that Brian needs another major back surgery. He had a herniated and ruptured disk fixed in his back in 2002 - but his back has gotten progressively worse since. We saw the specialist on Tuesday and he told him he needs Spinal Decompression and Spinal Fusion done. He told him that afterward he is going to feel like he has been hit by a bus. Nice eh? I explained that I was pregnant to the secretary b/c we don't want the surgery near when I am we have two dates. Sept 7th or Oct 4th. If it is not the first it will be the second...which does give him time to recover before baby comes....if baby comes.....I should stop talking like that...when baby comes!

Not that I want my hubby to have to have surgery, but it gives me something else to worry about other than me and this pregnancy!


  1. I wish I could tell you the worry stops, but for us it was constant. Just keep doing the best you can and we will all surround you with hugs. xxx

  2. Hoping all goes well for the hubby. I am praying for you. I know those nightmares can feel so real. May everything continue to go well for you.