Sunday, October 10, 2010

Brian's surgery - 20weeks

I brought Brian home from the hospital late Friday night. He is doing well - still in a considerable amount of pain from the surgery, but the nerve pain he has had down his legs, in his butt and up his side was gone the day after the surgery! (Which was the whole point of the surgery). The Dr. said he gave him a few gray hairs in the OR, his spine was petty messed up and the nerves were being crushed. He now has 4 screws, 2 rods, a cage and who knows what else in his back holding him together...but it seems to be working so that is great! It was a long exhausting week, but so worth.

This week my belly really popped so to speak. There is no denying or hiding the fact that I am pregnant, not that I would want to, but I definitely have a belly. (Which is nice!!) Plus, the little one is moving around a ton too, which I love.

These next two weeks are going to be hard - hard in the fact that with Jackson my water broke at 20w6d and then we delivered, held and lost him at 21w6d. I just want to fast froward these next two weeks and get them over with. I just don't want to go there, it is such a dark place and I just don't want to go there ever again. After these two weeks it is all uphill from here. (Don't get me wrong, until I have a living breathing baby in my arms, who I know will stay that way, I will still be stressed) But at least after 22 weeks it is all unchartered territory for me, it will be new, I won't have anything to compare it too, which I am excited about.


  1. I remember how hard it was to get past the point that we lost Jonathan. It is definitely hard emotional. Be good to yourself during this time and take it day by day. :) (hugs)

  2. Thinking of you {{HUGS}}


  3. It is just so hard to get past the mile markers. I have a ways to go but everyday my heart skips a beat just thinking about it. Keeping you in my prayers.

  4. Lifting you up sweet girl, hang in there, you are almost there! I know, easier said than done, Lord knows I didn't walk so gracefully, but I like to try and give you some hope. Praying for you always. Hope hubby feels better soon . xxx Nan