I can't exactly tell you where the last 2 - 3 weeks have gone. I was so busy with work and the holidays I didn't have a chance to get on here...but I am here now and it is time to catch up!
Well - first I made it to 2011 with a baby still growing in my belly, which is huge. And the second huge milestone is that I made to to 32 weeks. I now can deliver at my hospital, which is what I wanted all along. I am so lucky to work with such great people - I knew if something were to happen I would be in great hands. Not that I want anything to happen, but of course, after a loss you think about ALL the what-if's.
The last few days I have been noticing less movement - which after seeing my OB she reassured me that it is normal, she is still moving enough to meet the kick count requirements, but the types of movements have changed, which makes sense. As she grows and is starting to take up more spaces it feels like more wiggles and squirms as opposed to kicks and punches. I still get those every now and then, but more often I feel her shifting about in there.
Talk about time starting to fly, as of today I only have 1 month of work left, which for me is 4 sets of 4...which I think is good b/c I am getting more and more tired. I find myself enjoying afternoon naps, which I know I should enjoy now b/c when this baby comes there will be no more quiet afternoon naps, not unless she is sleeping of course.
Her room is slowly coming together - which I am so excited about. I often go in and just sit in the rocking chair and look around with a huge smile on my face. My 2 baby showers are coming up, both at the end of January...one family & friends and one work. I am excited for them both - we never got far enough with Jackson to have a baby shower....
I won't lie, all of this - getting the nursery ready and the baby showers bring up some anxiety. Not b/c I don't want to do them, but for the obvious reason that I don't want something to happen where we lose this baby too, and we are left with all this stuff. We had a few things set up and ready for Jackson and before we went home family had taken it all out of the house.So of course, this brings back all of those emotions. But I did some digging and asked myself what I wanted....and I wanted to have her room ready, I wanted to have a baby shower. I like to be ready and organized. I think it was casuing me more stress thinking about coming home to a house that wasn't ready for a baby. And for those who really know me, know that I am an organized 'control freak', if you will - I just like to be ready. Losing Jackson taught me that life doesn't go according to your plan, and I get that. Going with the flow is more what I am doing and I feel good about it.
6 weeks and 3 days until my induction and so much to do before then. I booked a photo session for Monday - I am getting Maternity photos done and I so excited about it. When I get them back I will post some of them for you all to see.
Back to work tomorrow...